We are leaving Ordinary Time
time of the winter cardinals, of the wet leaves
under snow—time of could you turn
your head a little bit more toward me
during class picture day.
That cross-eyed girl in fourth grade
has stared back at you for decades.
You hope she didn’t know you
were mean to her behind her back,
that you sometimes crossed your eyes
in fun after she passed you in the hallway,
even though your mother swore
your face could get stuck that way.
Your mother told you many things that weren’t true:
cottage cheese and jelly makes a fine dinner,
you always need to wear a slip,
you will succeed at something—we all do—
and some that were: lipstick is essential;
leave a trace everywhere you go,
people will know you’ve been there.
Your father is a good man.
I will always love you.
Your mother stays inside you, even though
she lives in the somewhere else now,
someplace where she is a little more like God,
which she would love.
Maybe she lives in the sky
or on a street paved with jewels,
or maybe just still in the ground,
beneath the patchwork blanket her own
mother quilted, waiting
for him and you and the others
who are still walking in and out
of ordinary time toward dust,
smudging ourselves
with ashes, proclaiming
the end and the beginning
of the palms waving in triumph.
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Touching reflection for today. Thank you
You give Ordinary Time the heft and depth of the other liturgical seasons–“still walking in and out / of ordinary time toward dust”–and the cascade of memories (cross-eyed classmate, cottage cheese and jelly, the patchwork blanket) demonstrates how, “in the meantime,” the extraordinary inhabits the ordinary, often chaotically. The conclusion–“ashes, proclaiming / the end and the beginning / of the palms waving in triumph”–echoes (for me at least) this from very near the end of Auden’s “For the Time Being: A Christmas Oratorio”: “In the meantime / There are bills to be paid, machines to keep in repair, / Irregular verbs to learn, the Time Being to redeem / From insignificance. The happy morning is over, / The night of agony still to come; the time is noon: / When the Spirit must practice his scales of rejoicing / Without even a hostile audience, and the Soul endure / A silence that is neither for nor against her faith / That God’s Will will be done, / That, in spite of her prayers, / God will cheat no one, not even the world of its triumph.” Thank you for this gift.